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I have a new home, a new school, and a few new friends. But the newest of all is my attitude. It's rapidly changing, and I don't think it's for the better. I feel like my opinions on everything are so much different than everyone else's. Sometimes it's cool, but other times I feel like there's something wrong with me. I've been called a bitch several times in the past few weeks. But I'm not a bitch, I just like to say what I think. If someone says something that I find retarded or rude, I let them know.
Now that I'm more open about my thoughts on religion, I feel like I'm constantly being criticized or brainwashed. Don't try to push your religion on me. Almost every friend that I've ever had has been Christian, and I'm fine with that. Infact, I considered myself a Christian not too long ago. I convinced myself that I believed in god to fit in. But I am not claiming atheism to stand out. I just don't believe in god, period.
The paper that I wrote on population control last year really changed my way of thinking. But again, maybe not for the good. This may seem horrible, but I really dislike those yellow livestrong bracelets. No, not only the yellow ones, I hate all of them. Come on people, do you really want a cure for cancer? Sure, it all seems like a good idea right now. But just you wait until it actually happens. There will be so many people around that shooting sprees will start to sound like a good idea. And I'm not even sure if I'm kidding.
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[31 Aug 2005|08:15pm] |
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So, here I am in Tampa. Why did school have to start? Last week was kinda fun, but now I have to worry about all this homework. I was really stressed out yesterday and the day before because I had a lot of shit to do. I'm better today though. My 2 worst classes(comp 1 and intro to American studies) are on Mondays and Wednesdays. Since we don't have school on Monday, I have a week to get everything done. So...
Comp 1 - My teacher(yeah I know they're "professors," but I'll call them whatever the fuck I wanna call them) seems pretty cool and helpful. It's a lot of work, but it's that way in all the comp 1 classes because the whole department does all the same shit.
University Experience - Seems pretty easy and the teacher's nice. Plus, Samantha's in there so I have some entertainment lol. She split us into different groups and we have to do projects and stuff. My group consists of me and 3 guys, and we're called the Oompa Loompas. It's funny how everyone always says that college is so much different from high school. Ok buddy, GROUP WORK? Sounds kinda high schoolish to me...
Intro to American Studies - The teacher is kinda weird. The class is little hard for me because history is not my strongest subject. Samantha's in that class with me too.
College Algebra - Most college algebra classes are 5 days a week, but mine is only 4. Because I have one less day, I have to go to some other building and do math on the computer for an hour. But it's only once a week, and I can go whenever I want.
Well, I have 2 different classes for college algebra. 1 of them is a big lecture hall with 230 kids that I attend on Tuesdays and Thursdays. The other one is a smaller class with about 30 kids that I go to on Wednesdays and Fridays. In the smaller class the teacher is foreign and I can barely understand her. I'm not worried about it though. If I have a problem understanding her I'll just try to teach myself from the book.
Oceanography - It's an online class. I don't really know anything about it, except that my first assignment is due September 12th. Samantha's in that class too.
So here's a list of all the shit I have to do. I know you guys don't care, but I need to write(or type) it so I don't forget.
1. Write a 500 word paper on the best class I've ever had
2. Take plagiarism test online
3. Take documentation quiz online. Whatever that is.
4. Email teacher a paragraph or so about time management
5. Read 60 pages of lame American history crap
6. Do the oceanography stuff that I haven't even looked at yet
7. Do the computer thing for algebra
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[28 Aug 2005|07:32pm] |
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We had a little "party" at my house last night. It was fun. There's a lot I could say but I'm not going to. School starts tomorrow. I'm really tired. And I'm in a really bad mood.
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| MOVING! |
[22 Aug 2005|03:05pm] |
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I'm moving to Tampa tomorrow at 9 in the morning! So you guys can get rid of my home phone number(the 392 one) and make sure you have my cell phone #(the 871 one). I'll probably be getting a new cell phone soon though, and when I do I'll be sure to fill you in.
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[31 Jul 2005|08:22am] |
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I'm going camping in Ocala. I'm leaving now and I'll be home tomorrow night. Have fun without me. I'll think of you all when I'm coppin a squat in the bushes.
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[29 Jul 2005|02:22pm] |
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Dear Mom,
I love how I have to do chores all day because I "have nothing better to do." Like you would know what I do. Like you even take the time to care. I love how you won't give me any money for it because you're "poor." Yet your send your stepdaughter $100 a week to sit on her ass and do nothing. At least I had a job for most of the summer. I love that my teeth are going to rot because you "can't afford" to get my cavities filled. I love that I haven't been to the doctors since 6th grade because I don't have health insurance and I'm probably dying from some african disease(yes, I'm aware that I don't live in Africa, but anything could happen). I know that things could be worse. My family could actually be poor. But you're not. You're a damn liar. We live in a condo on the beach. You take vacations to Europe without me at least once a year. You buy $50 bottles of wine at least once a week because you're an "alcoholic." Bitch, please! You're not an alcoholic, you just don't have any will power! So instead of coming home and getting drunk everyday, why don't you do your own damn chores.
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| The Jacobs Family |
[24 Jul 2005|02:35am] |
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One day Stephanie's richass boyfriend was like "hey I think I'll get my gf a $450 dog just for the hell of it." So Stephanie was like...
Then we were like "omg he's so cute"
And Stephanie was like "I shall name him Bo"
And I was like "omg how do you spell that cuz I think I just spelled it wrong" and then I was like "omg I didn't really say that outloud I'm just thinking it right now mmk?"
He really likes feet
 
But he LOVES to hump arms(even if you can't tell that's what he's doing)
Gus was so upset that this new guy was getting all the attention that his eyes were glowing
And Shadow was so depressed that he kept his chin on that table all day long
But the cool kids didn't care, cuz they were chillin outside in the grass. And yes I did just say the word CHILLIN, bitches.
 
Except Nina. They won't let her out of the house. Let's just say that Nina Jacobs and I are in love...
 
 
But I get really upset when she cheats on me with Jon and his ugly red card pants
I sure hope she knows that little Jonny's a whore...
 
But Jon's like "hey, pimpin ain't easy"
And one day all the pets got in a fight over Jon and Nina had a major injury and had to go to the hospital! (No, this isn't the same injury that you saw in picture #15!)
Mama Jacobs was so shocked when she found out about all this drama!
The end. ( Yay it's a picture story! )
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[18 Jul 2005|08:02pm] |
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Everyone has a flaw. Like, that one major flaw that most people can clearly see. And I've wanted to know what mine is for the longest time. At work everyone talks shit about everyone else. I know they talk about me. But I don't know what they say. I'd really like to know. Not so I can go kick their asses, but because I'd like to work on it. And if I'm not willing to change it, at least I'll know why they hate me. Obviously I'm not a very popular person. I don't have tons of friends. Actually I have very few friends. So telling me that I have no noticeable flaws is a lie. So as a friend, I'd like you to tell me what you don't like me. I can take the criticism. Even if you tell me that my breath smells like cat shit or something of that nature.
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| Jeff's new name is MOOBS |
[13 Jul 2005|11:26pm] |
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Lately I've been depressed a lot. Today wasn't bad though. I worked for 9 hours and for once I wasn't stressed. No stupid projects and no crazy customers. Of course I was still the first one getting called to register, but I didn't really mind. There's no use in fighting it because it will never change. The love of my life quit the other day. *sigh* life goes on. He wasn't really my type anyway...if I even have a type. Plus he was kind of stupid lol. We got 4 new kids today. 3 white girls and an asian guy, all around the age of 16. I trained Kristina in domestics(the only department in the store that I don't know). I was like "I don't know where anything goes either, so this is a learning experience for both of us!" I probably scared her...whatev. Mrs. S was making the new guy, John, rearrange all the pillows. He'll probably be TJMaxx's new bitch boy. Sorry to bore you but life hasn't been too exciting. My going away party is tomorrow though! Kristen, Jackie, Danielle and I are going to Celebration Station tomorrow after work. Kind of childish but still fun. Hopefully we'll play tennis after that. And on Friday. I really like tennis. Oh, and the other day we found a whole bunch of tennis balls in the trash, so we took them. I like free stuff. And my last day at work has been changed from the 18th to the 22nd. Yes, I am a pushover.
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[08 Jul 2005|09:19pm] |
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i wish the world was flat like the old days
then i could travel just by folding a map
no more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways
there'd be no distance that can hold us back
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| The long, drawn out explanation as to why I quit my job. |
[05 Jul 2005|11:51pm] |
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Yesterday
Debbie: *over intercom* Nichole to your register please, Nichole to your register
Mrs Hart: Why do they keep calling you?
Me: Uhh because they always call me. You're just now noticing?
Mrs Hart: Well I kind of noticed before but never really thought it was a big deal. Well why don't you stick up for yourself?
Me: Because everytime I do you tell me to stop complaining!
Today
Kelly: *over intercom* Nichole to jewelry please, Nichole to jewelry
Me: Virginia is supposed to cover it, not me
Kelly: Virginia is busy doing something in the backroom so I need you to cover it
Me: I already covered 2 jewelry breaks and 3 fitting room breaks. I've been the only one on side register all day. I covered you at the service desk everytime you needed to go to the bathroom or make a phone call. So I'm not doing it. It's not fair to me and I won't be pushed around anymore. You have 3 other people to call to jewelry that haven't done anything all day. *goes back to women's department*
5 minutes later
Mr Gordan: *comes out of office to find me* I hear there's a problem. Why won't you cover the jewelry break?
Me: Because I do EVERYTHING around here while the stupid merchandise coordinators don't have to do anything and it's not fair to me
Mr Gordan: Because they get paid more than you
Me: Exactly! I get paid less to deal with more stress and put up with more shit
Mr Gordan: Well, I don't know what to tell you. I'll try to have them call other people but I can't make any promises
5 minutes later
Me: Remember how I wouldn't cover the jewelry break? Yeah, well Kelly the idiot told Gordan on me
Julie: Are you serious? That's retarded. You've been practically running the store by yourself all morning
Me: *starts to cry*
5 minutes later
Me: *walks into office* This is my two weeks notice. Which would make my last day July 19th, but I requested that day off, so I guess July 18th
Mr Gordan: Can't you stay until the end of July since you don't leave for college until August?
Me: No, I'm not quitting because of the college thing, I'm quitting because I'm sick of this place and you know why
Mr. Gordan: Well if you change your mind, let me know
Me: I won't stay longer unless things change
So I took Mrs. Hart's advice and stood up for myself and then Kelly, who I thought was a pretty cool, understanding person, tells on me like a little baby. Well I'm done with that now. I had other things to say but I don't really remember what they are. I had a 2 hour conversation with my friend Kristen about how much we hate TJMaxx. So I really doubt I'll stay past July 18th. I really do need the money though. BLAH!
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| Thought it was a cute song |
[24 Jun 2005|02:59pm] |
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I took +Cutie for a ride in my Death Cab+
She tipped me with a kiss, I dropped her off at the Meth Lab
Before she left me, she made a +Dashboard Confessional+
And spilled the guts in +Cursive+, but whats worse
Is I could still see her +Bright Eyes+ like +Sunny Day Real Estate+
Oh my, ain't a funny way to seal, It tastes
So high but no chance
+My little Chemical Romance+, left a bad taste in my mouth
But I approached her like, +Hey Mercedes+, why the long face?
Why you cryin, no need, just put on this +Coheed+, and +Fallout
Boy+ meets Girl, +Jimmy Eat World+
But Schlep eats pills till hes all out
Not once, not twice, she was +Thrice+ times a lady
Actin all +Brand New+, but I had to
Bounce to the +Postal Services+ to
Pick up these pills that take care of my nervousness
And, on the way, I saw +Planes and Mistook 'em for Stars+
She played games, but she took 'em too far
+At the Drive-in+, watchin soft porn and you could tell
By the +Trail of the Dead+ that there was something in the Popcorn
Hop in my cab destination +Midtown+
Just to get up with some kids that like to get down
I made my rounds and that was that
In between the frowns and scraps and heartattacks
And I remember
I seen her ass +Early November+
On a +Thursday+, +Taking back Sunday+ for a refund
She shot a wink, like No Hard Feelings
Then she +Jetted to Brazil+, and the pills had me spun
Yeah, this +The Story of the Year+ right here
This is +Hot Water Music+
Cook your +Ramens+ to it
Whattup Eliot I ain't seen you in a minute
How you doin?
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[08 Jun 2005|02:23pm] |
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- Went tanning yesterday with Jackie from work. I was supposed to go today too but I'm all sunburnt.
- I miss little sarah. I think she's supposed to get back on Friday.
- Work sucks. But I only have to deal with it for 2 more months. Mom doesn't want me to have a job when I'm in college. Which is way cool with me.
- I'm still not sure where I'm gonna live. I'm going to Tampa again tomorrow to look at another apartment. I'll give you guys the info on that a little later...lol
- My grandma sent me a letter. It was cute. She said that she cried when she read my thank you card. I don't remember what I wrote in the card. Oh well.
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Just got home from work. I'm way tired so I'm gonna take a little nap. When I wake up at around 6 I'm gonna go find a park or something and run around. It'd be nice if I didn't have to go alone. So you're welcome to join me. But if you don't want to, whatev. Call me if you want.
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I just wanna run around. Or play tennis. I'm sick of sitting here on my ass, munchin on chips. I feel like I'm getting fatter and fatter every second. I want to get SKINNIER. If that's even a word. But when I run outside in the daytime I feel like everyone's staring at me. And at night I feel like I'm gonna get raped. I need someone with me to protect me! But everyone's lazy. If you feel the same way...LET A BROTHA KNOW!
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Drove mom and Jeff to wherever so they could get drunk. On the way there we somehow got to talking about birth control. Jeff told me that it's stupid and irresponsible of me to not be on the pill. He said "what if one day you meet a guy you like and have sex with him? You'll wish you were on the pill". I told him that won't happen because I have morals. So of course he asked me if I'm a lesbian. I'm so sick of getting asked that. Just because I don't run around like an animal in heat doesn't mean I'm a lesbian. I simply have no desire for sex. I think it seems disgusting. You go and do whatever you please but that doesn't mean I'll do it too. My conversation with them reminded me so much of Brave New World. They made it seem like I'm the only virgin alive. They made me feel like an outcast. Not that I really care, it's just sad that people are like that. It annoys me when people say that they're proud to be a virgin. Like Rachel Gilley's writing in the yearbook. She's such an idiot. Wow, I'm a virgin. I don't think it's all that hard to resist the "temptation", so why be proud? But I guess it's hard for other people to resist. So maybe I'm just weird. Whatever. I'll be as weird as I choose to be.
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So yesterday was graduation. I went to Sarah's house early so her mom could curl my hair. We got there at 2 and waited in a room for an hour and a half. We thought they were gonna put us in alphabetical order but they didn't. They split us up into 2 lines, and the one that we weren't in started to move forward, so Sarah, Jessica, and I ran over there because we wanted to sit near the front. Well, somehow everything got messed up and I ended up in the second to last row between Sarah and Sean. When we were walking out there I saw my dad, grandma, and Lisa(dad's gf) in the front and Lisa was giving me dirty looks. She really pisses me off. The rest of my family couldn't find me. They were watching a girl in the back row the whole time cuz they thought it was me. Then when my name was called they were completely surprised lol. I was so nervous that I was shaking and my face was twitching. I think my twitching face scared the principal, because when I shook his hand he looked at me funny and asked me if I was ok. I could hear Kim scream "NIWI" and as I walked down the stairs JP yelled "Mommy look it's a man!" When we all walked back to the other room to get our REAL diplomas, all the teachers were standing there and Mrs. Whitehurst made me give her a hug...ew. Then Sarah couldn't find her diploma so Jessica and I were trying to wait for her but it was impossible to stand there while all the kids were charging at us, trying to get out. So I met my parents outside and they took pictures and stuff. My mom invited my dad back to our house for my little "graduation party" and he said no. He was too busy for that. He said that he shed a tear when he saw me on stage. Yeah, bullshit. When he handed my card to me, he told me not to lose it. It was a check for $500. But to tell you the truth, I don't want it. I wanted to give it back to him and tell him that I don't need his money. Overall I got $1,240 for graduation. It's pretty cool, but it's not like I'll ever see that money. It's all going in the bank, and then when I move out I'll spend it on furniture and groceries and stuff. Anyway, then I went to Sarah's grandma's for her graduation party. I told my mom I was staying the night at her house so I brought clothes and stuff with me. We were really planning on getting drunk and staying the night at Sarah M's house, but her family was over so we couldn't. So we drove around for a while trying to get alcohol, but had no luck. So at 12 we gave up and went home. When I walked in my room my aunt we sleeping in my bed, so I had to sleep out on the couch. When my parents were getting ready for work at 7 this morning they were being so fricken loud. I wanted to hit them. And now here I am. And it's shower time. If you read all of this without getting bored, good job my friend.
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| Random stuff |
[12 May 2005|07:20pm] |
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- I have a new AIM screen name: WhiteLikeMyMom. So add it to your effing list right now.
- Today was Michele's birthday. As her present, I wore a different pair of shoes to school.
- Sarah and Jessica just came over and took like a 2 hour nap while I was sitting here on the computer. Why they came to my house to take a nap, I'm not really sure.
- I really miss Justin
- My mom just informed me that I'm still on the waiting list for Tampa. So who knows what college I'm going to.
- So far I've gotten $90 in graduation money. And a digital camera from my parents
- My camera didn't come with a cord so I have to go buy one
- And the most important thing is...
THERE'S ONLY 1 DAY LEFT OF SCHOOL!
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| All about my day! |
[12 May 2005|02:43pm] |
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Woke up at 5 this morning cuz I had to take a shower and get all the shit out of my backpack cuz we weren't allowed to bring our backpacks to school for some gayass reason, what the hell ever. In 1st period we kept getting yelled at by the DruDru cuz she's a giant PooPoo. Whenever I took a picture of someone she'd look at me like I was doing something wrong. I didn't know we weren't allowed to have cameras at school...? In 2nd period I got Mrs. Whitehurst to change my 4 absences to 3 because I had 3 in all my other classes and she was like "I must have done something wrong because I know you wouldn't skip my class". Then in 3rd period I had a shitload of work to do but I got other people to print it out for me except for the last page cuz no one did it. And in 4th period we did nothing, as usual. I took lots of random pictures(62 to be exact) that I wanted to post but I can't cuz I dunno how to plug the thing in. God I'm so dumb! Well I'm really bored right now cuz I don't have to work today. I'm gonna go to sleep. Call me if you wanna hang out(Melissa that means you)!
"Now there's gonna be 8 kids in the house!? I have 2 words for you Frank, SNIP SNIP!"
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| College |
[10 May 2005|02:06pm] |
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I should be sleeping right now, since I'm way tired and I gotta work at 5. But I wanted to take the time to write about college. Plus meaghan keeps telling me to update. Well, as most of you probably know, I got rejected from the USF in Tampa, which is the one I really wanted to go to. But I got accepted to the St Pete one, so I guess that's pretty cool. I was thinking about all the positives and negatives about going to the St Pete one instead of the Tampa one, and here's what I came up with:
Positives:
- More familiar environment
- Will be living at home, so I won't have to be stressed about paying rent and stuff
- I'll be reunited with the wonderful Rachelle Haynes
- Can still hang out with other friends who stayed here(people going to SPC or people who are going to be seniors at Bogie, like my little Melissa)
- Can keep my job
Negatives:
- Most of my friends are going/already go to the Tampa one (Samantha, Tiffany, Laura, Sean, Melody, Ryan, Nicki, Chris, Jenn, JP, Pranay, a bunch more)
- Will be stuck with my annoying parents
- Will have to drive a long way everyday
- Won't have the "dorm experience"
- Keeping my job at the Maxx is both a positive and negative thing, because while I kind of like it, I would also like to be getting paid more.
So it's tied...5 to 5. Of course last night while I was thinking about this, I came up with way more than just 10 of these, but I'm tired right now so oh well. Anyway, if I don't like it there I can go to a different college in a year or 2.
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